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The best things in the world’s worth the wait. And I think you are.
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When I closed my eyes, I thought about you. Then I fell asleep.
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VII, my favourite part of the Roman numerals.
Finding a job suitable for me is hard work. Getting a PS3slim and Tekken, I just need 300 fucking dollars more to buy the whole damn bundle.
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Well, first time you managed to piss me off.
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FML. Everything has not been going right for me, not even a bloody game. I also can’t believe that there are people that are that dense, using big words doesn’t mean you’re smart if you don’t know when and how to use it. It may just backfire on you and portray you as fucking stupid. And being able to use such “big” words doesn’t mean you can be a bootlicker and associate yourself with someone with an established reputation, and then think that you can say whatever you think is right whenever the person’s around.
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Seeing pictures of friends’ you’ve known for many years and been in the same classes together only to be separated by a stupid fault and a screwed up way of thinking. Now instead of graduating with them, they’re graduating first, I should feel happy for them but just looking at the pictures just makes me feel like crying, too late to regret, only thing I can do now is to lament, whine and blame myself for what I’ve done. With them gone, and my current circle of friends more than certain to fail their N levels, I’m afraid that I’ll be alone next year. Contrary to belief, I’m an anti-social person in school, I only stick with people I know better. Oh well, the life of a life that had potential to have a better life, only to be screwed by my own doing. There’s not much light in this cave.
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Sometimes I just feel that we are drifting further and further apart. I click on your contact on msn, but I just don’t know what to type other than the standard “hello” or “hi”. Or just stare blankly at the chat window wondering what to type, maybe even begging for you to start the chat first. And on the days that you have school and are not online on msn but posting on the forums, I’ll panic a little, thinking that you’re appearing offline on msn, I’ll leave a message there and when you don’t reply, I’d think of sending you a message to come online and chat. I don’t know why but these seem to be the few insecurities, and idiosyncrasies of my life. I think that I’ve grown so attached to you that I’ll feel lonely without you, you made my night life so much better from the first time we chatted, and when you’re gone, the night feels so.. So different now, so quiet, so colourless. Did you know that when we had that convo yesterday night and someone thought we were a couple? I wished we were, but seeing things as they are now, I think it’s just not the right time yet, a case of forbidden “love”? Fatal attraction, or is it just an infatuation? My feelings for you are unlike others that I have felt before.. These feelings just can’t be ignored.
I’m trying not to love you, I’m trying not to care, I’m trying not to live my life. Wishing you were there, I’m trying not to wonder, where you are or what you do, I’m sorry I cant help myself.
I fell in love with you.
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Once again, why am I so bad at being good?
Perfect song for my mood right now.
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You’re the first one that made me feel this way. You’re the first one I know who made my late nights enjoyable. You’re the first one that made me think you are special.
But, are you the one?
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It’s really a pain in the ass to think of titles.
A big fuck you to James. Hi.
